March #SOL16 Day 5
We’re sitting together on the couch. I’m dreading this. Is now the right time? Should I wait until the tomorrow when she’s fresher? She seems to take stuff better in the mornings.
No, just go for it. She needs to know so in her mind she can start making alternate plans.
I resolve. I’m going to be casual about this. “Oh and tomorrow, I won’t be able to have dinner with you.” It hangs in the air. I smile (why? Does smiling make the news go down easier?) I think about changing the subject. I let it hang a little longer.
Big mistake (who am I fooling? This could never have gone well)
A sad face looks back at me.
“OK”, she says. Looking so, so pitiful.
“What will you be doing?” she asked.
“Just going to a concert here in the city. I thought I could get out of it, I thought someone else might take my place, so I was waiting to tell you, but then I found out that other person wasn’t going, so now I’m going, I’m sorry.” I guess I thought if I rambled through it she would hear the stress in my voice and she would feel that I was sorry too.
The thing is, though, I’m not sorry. Not sorry about the concert I’m going to see tonight, that is. I think it’ll be cool to see Edwin McCain at City Winery. I love the venue. I love the people there. I feel like they’re extended family, they are so good to us. Always incredibly happy when we walk through their doors.
The thing is, it’s kind of fun to go there.
There, I said it.
It’s fun to go out to dinner and a concert.
But….I am sorry about how our schedule has been interrupted.